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fuck, what did i get myself into.

oh wait, you’d have to care to show it.

just really fucking sucks.

I like you way too fucking much.
I seriously need to stop this.
You live forever away, nothing is going to become of it.
I need to move the fuck on.
Why the fuck do i do this to myself all the fucking time.
god damn. 

oh, well thank you (:

this is annoying.
you know.
but you act like nothings changed.
glad you care. 

I think I know what my problem is. I bottle up my feelings. I mean I let most of them out on tumblr but that doesn’t really help all of the time. I haven’t cried in a really long time, beside Thursday but that was for a whole different reason. Forest is right. Tomorrow is a new day. Getting a new phone and a new computer. Got my feelings out. Hopefully it will just be good. And I think I’m might talk to my parents this weekend about my feelings. Maybe I should go with my sister to one of her therapy appointments haha. I just need to look on the positive side of things. If I want things to change I need to do it. So that’s what I’m going to do. New year new me. ( that doesn’t sound cliche or anything) but I’m going to try and make it happen.
Goodnight

Yeah tomorrow might be a new day, but the same old shit will still be going on.
I can’t just not care what people thing.
Especially my parents.
My fear is letting them down.
And my dad tells me every day on how much I am doing that.